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Gish

Gish was released by Caroline records a minor label owned by Virgin records, later all other albums would release on the Virgin label itself.  This way the Pumpkins kept their known underground reputation. In the beginning of 1991 The Smashing Pumpkins began recording in Wisconsin. The owner of the studio Butch Vig a producer becoming famously known at the time. Previously producing an album with Nirvana when released as the famous Nevermind, because of this The Smashing Pumpkins would be associated with grunge scene the ever growing music sensation.
         Gish was released in September written completely by Billy Corgan. This album is known to be less successful lyrically the lines sounding of immature poetry, as he had yet to refine his writing skills. 
       Gish produced Spectacular sales. The Smashing Pumpkins largest audience at this time was American. Playing I am one in vast amounts. Then Nevermind was released and the pumpkins briefly disappeared. The Pumpkins set out on tour that lasted a year long. Two hundred and fifty-thousand copies of their debut album Gish sold within the first twelve months. Gish would be the first of the seven major albums to be released

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Gish

I am one

I am one as you are three
Try to find a messiah in your trinity
Your city to burn
Your city to burn
Try to look for something
Your city to burn; you'll burn
Am I as I seem? Oh no
Don't slow down

Time is right for a guiding light
Try to turn to reasons in your inner life
Your city to burn
Your city to burn
Try to look for something
Your city to burn; you'll burn

Said you're the only one who
Said I am one
Said now you're the one who
Said I am one 

Siva

That's when I bend loose my head
Throwing straight a spark instead
Yellow streak down in my hair
Dig it in the world I heal

Way down deep and in my heart
Lies a soul that's torn apart
Tell me, tell me what you're after
I just want to get there faster

I don't live - I invade
I don't give - I unveil
Don't want to live in your misery
I don't live - I invade

Sprinkle all my kisses on your head
Stars follow wishes fill your bed
She said, 'I'm dead'

All this pain smothers me
Like a bomb that you can't see
Tell me, tell me what you're after
I just want to get there faster

I don't live - I invade
I don't give - I unveil
I don't live

Rhinoceros

Planned a show
Treasoned my roots
Ice cream snow
See you in June

Could have known
I would relive
Should have known
I would come see you

Your way she knows
And she knows she knows she knows

Colors show
After long
I should go
See you in June

Open your eyes - to these must I lie?


Bury me

(boys, let's do it)

Real love
Real love

I'll take your kisses, take your heart
Everything if it hurts

I love my sister so (turn on shine)
She don't smother me (turn on shine, on shine)
I played the spades I know (on shine)
I'm a Jack of all trades
Would you bury me?

Once you see her
One inside (hide, hide)
Some of the things you just can't hide

If you see her
Tell me why hurry, hurry
Why won't she come outside?

She will bury me

Crush

You wrap your arms around
A feeling that surrounds
Like liquid peppermint
Just taste the drinks that she served

And this feeling shimmers down your spine
Love comes in colors I can't deny
All that matters is love, love, your love

You're sleeping in your bed
Just rest your weary head
Maybe you shouldn't care
Throw away those dreams and dare

And I wonder if it matters to me
Love comes in colors I can't deny
All that shimmers is love, love, your love
Your love

Suffer

All that you suffer is all that you are
All that you smother is all that you are
And you're saying you're seeing, you're seeing who you are
What takes meaning is cleaning the meaning of who you are

All may say
I will dream
All may say

All of your struggles beneath your disguise
Drink from the reasons that hold you alive
'Til we're safe from the wounds of desire and pain
You must rise from the mounds of desire and change

Too late to discover peace of mind
Too late to recover me

All you see and all you breathe and all you cease to be
Taken down your only son and what he means to me
Your dream will be
To dream with me

Will you wait? Yes I will, I will wait for you
To cleanse your life takes more than time
Take what you want
Take all of it

Too late to discover peace of mind
Too late to recover

Snail

All your seven dreams
Look close, son, and you'll believe
As your things come undone
See you are the only one

Flower, seize the hour I did
I wait
Waiting, waiting for your wake
I'll wait

When you wake up you're all weak
Throwing your life away
Someday, sorry coming home
Sorry snail
What you wait for

Flower, the pain will wash away, away
When the sun shines
Climbs through your window into your bed

When you wake up you're all weak
Throwing your life away
Someday, sorry coming home
Sorry snail
Down in my heart

Flower save the hours
Flower away

What you wait for
Flower chase the sunshine
Flower

Tristessa

Pledged your faith
my heart embraced
struggle to renew

Blurry mind
so hypnotized
fast enough who

Wonder where you are
Tristessa

Soul takes soul
as eye take eye
I will wait for you

What you believe
you'll wish to receive
I won't believe in you

Hang on to your life
Tristessa

I love you true
Surely I do
Surely I do

Do you ever wake up and find yourself alone?
Do you ever wake up far from home?
What you believe
you'll wish to receive
I won't believe in you
Tristessa

Window paine

Window Paine
Around my heart
Shadow streak
Around my heart

Do what you got to do
And say what you got to say
Do what you got to do
Yes, start today
Start today

Wind blow shame
Around my heart
Shadow scream
Around my heart

What are you coming to
Stripped down to the bone?
Laughing, living
On your own
All alone

Do what you got to do
And say what you got to say
Do what you got to do
Yes, start today
Start today

Daydream

My daydream seems as one inside of me
Though it seems hard to reach through this life
Your blue and hopeless life

My daydream screams bitter 'til the end
The love I share -true- selfish to the heart
My heart, my sacred heart

My daydream dream
My day dream dream

I'm going crazy
I'm going crazy
I don't want feelings
Your feelings

I have gone crazy
Motherfuckin' crazy
I have gone
 

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Mellon Collie & The Infinite Sadness

Tonight, Tonight

Time is never time at all
You can never ever leave without leaving a piece of youth
And our lives are forever changed
We will never be the same
The more you change the less you feel

Believe, believe in me, believe
Believe that life can change
That you're not stuck in vain
We're not the same, we're different tonight
Tonight, so bright
Tonight

And you know you're never sure
But you're sure you could be right
If you held yourself up to the light
And the embers never fade in your city by the lake
The place where you were born

Believe, believe in me, believe
Believe in the resolute urgency of now
And if you believe there's not a chance tonight
Tonight, so bright
Tonight

We'll crucify the insincere tonight
We'll make things right, we'll feel it all tonight
We'll find a way to offer up the night tonight
The indescribable moments of your life tonight
The impossible is possible tonight
Believe in me as I believe in you, tonight

Jellybelly

Welcome to nowhere fast
Nothing here ever lasts
Nothing but memories of what never was

We're nowhere, we're nowhere, we're nowhere to be
Nowhere, we're nowhere, we're nowhere to see

Living makes me sick
So sick I wish I'd die
Down in the belly of the beast
I can't lie

You're nowhere, you're nowhere, you're nowhere to be
Nowhere, you're nowhere, you're nowhere to see

There's nothing left to do
There's nothing left to feel
Doesn't matter what you want, so

To make yourself feel better
You make it so you'll never
Give in to your forevers
And live for always

And forever, forever, you're forever to be
Forever, forever, you're forever to me

Zero

My reflection, dirty mirror
There's no connection to myself
I'm your lover, I'm your zero
I'm the face in your dreams of glass
So save your prayers
For when we're really gona need 'em
Throw out your cares and fly
Wanna go for a ride?

She's the one for me
She's all I really need
'cause she's the one for me
Emptiness is loneliness, and loneliness is cleanliness
And cleanliness is godliness, and God is empty just like me

Intoxicated with the madness, I'm in love with my sadness
Bullshit fakers, enchanted kingdoms
The fashion victims chew their charcoal teeth
I never let on, that I was on a sinking ship
I never let on that I was down
You blame yourself, for what you can't ignore
You blame yourself for wanting more
She's the one for me
She's all I really need
She's the one for me
She's my one and only

Here Is No Why

The useless drag of another day
The endless drags of a death rock boy
Mascara sure and lipstick lost
Glitter burned by restless thoughts
Of being forgotten

And in your sad machines
You'll forever stay
Desperate and displeased - with whoever you are
And you're a star

Somewhere - he pulls his hair down - over a frowning smile
A hidden diamond you cannot find
A secret star that cannot shine over to you

May the king of gloom be forever doomed
And in your sad machines
You'll forever stay
Burning up in speed
Lost inside your dreams, of teen machines

The useless drags, the empty days
The lonely towers of long mistakes
To forgotten faces and faded loves
Sitting still was never enough

And if you're giving in, you're giving up
'cause in your sad machines
You'll forever stay
Burning up in speed
Lost inside the dreams of teen machines

Bullet With Butterfly Wings

The world is a vampire, sent to drain
Secret destroyers, hold you up to the flames
And what do I get for my pain?
Betrayed desires, and a piece of the game

(Chorus)
Even though I know - I suppose I'll show
All my cool and cold-like old job
Despite all my rage I'm still just a rat in a cage (2x)
Then someone will say what is lost can never be saved
Despite all my rage I'm still just a rat in a cage

Now I'm naked, nothing but an animal
But can you fake it, for just one more show?
And what do you want, I want to change
And what have you got when you feel the same

(Chorus)

(Chorus 2)
Tell me I'm the only one
Tell me there's no other one
Jesus was an only son
Tell me I'm the chosen one
Jesus was an only son for you

(Chorus)
(Chorus 2)

Despite all my rage I'm still just a rat in a cage
Then someone will say what is lost can never be saved
Despite all my rage I'm still just a rat in a cage
And I still believe that I cannot be saved

To Forgive

Ten times removed
I forget about where it all began
Bastard son of a bastard son of
A wild eyed child of the sun
And right as rain, I'm not the same
But I feel the same, I feel nothing

(Chorus)
Holding back the fool again
Holding back the fool pretends
I forget to forget nothing is important
Holding back the fool again

I sensed my loss
Before I even learned to talk
And I remember my birthdays
Empty party afternoons won't come back

(Chorus)

I forget to forget me
I forget to forget you see
Nothing is important to me

I knew my loss
Before I even learned to speak
And all along, I knew it was wrong
But I played along, with my birthday song

(Chorus)

Fuck You (An Ode To No One)

I'm never coming back
I'm never giving in
I'll never be the shine in your spit
I disconnect the act
I disconnect the dots
I disconnect the me in me

And you're mistaken, it's you that's faking
Living and breathing and dying too
This message is for anyone who dares to hear a fool
You can't bring me back, you can't bring me back
'cause I give it all back to you
Thru sacred alleys, the living wrecks
Wreak their havoc upon this world
The disenchanted, the romantics
The body and face and soul of you is gone down that deep black hole
Destroy the mind, destroy the body, but you cannot destroy the heart

And you, you make me so I need to disconnect
And you make it so real
I don't need your love to disconnect

To runaround kids in get-go cars
With vaseline afterbirths and neon coughs
Galaxies full of nobodies
Giving us the farewell runarounds
I took a Virgin Mary axe to this sweet baby Jane
Lost my innocence to a no good girl
Scratch my face with anvil hands
And coil my tongue around a bumblebee mouth

And I give it all back to you

No way, I don't need it
I don't need your love to disconnect
And you make it, so real
I don't need your love to disconnect
No way to disconnect
And you make it so real
I don't need your love to disconnect
No way to disconnect

Love

To my mistakes, to my mistakes of cowardice
She shimmy shakes, the Jimmy Jakes of consequence
Born of the airs and dues, my airs of madness to declare
That it's ok, it's love

(Chorus)
It's what you wanted to see, it's who you wanted to be
For what you needed to need, she'll make it up
Love, it's who you know

Machine gun blues, her vacant rush is so steel
I'm unaware, lost inside your visions
I got mine too over, I got mine and I got you
'cause I know you, you're love

(Chorus)

Can I look up to you as you look down on me
Can I feel in to you as you felt in to me
I can't help what you see, I can't help but to be
For what I needed to need, she'll make it
Love, it's who you know

Cupid de Locke

Cupid hath pulled back his sweetheart's bow
To cast divine arrow into her soul
To grab her attention swift and quick
Or morrow the marrow of her bones be thick
With turpentine kisses and mistaken blows

See the devil may do as the devil may care
He loves no one sweeter as sweeter the dare
Her mouth the mischief he doth seek
Her heart the captive of which he speaks

So note all of ye lovers in love with the sound
Your world be shattered with nary a note
Of one cupids arrow under your coat

And in the land of the star crossed lovers
And barren heart wanderers
Forever lost in forsaken missives and Satan's pull
We seek the unseekable and we speak the unspeakable
Our hopes dead gathering dust to dust
In faith, in compassion, and in love

Galapogos

Ain't it funny how we pretend we're still a child
Softly stolen under blanket skies
And rescue me from me, and all that I believe

(Chorus)
I won't deny the pain
I won't deny the change
And should I fall from grace here with you
Would you leave me too?

Carve out your heart for keeps in and old oak tree
And hold me for goodbyes and whispered lullabyes
And tell me I am still the man I'm supposed to be

(Chorus)

Too late to turn to turn back now, I'm running out of sound
And I'm changing, changing, and if we died right now
This fool you love somehow is here with you

(Chorus)

I fear that I am ordinary, just like everyone
To lie here and die among the sorrows
Adrift among the days
For everything I ever said
And everything I've ever done is gone and dead

(Chorus)
As all things must surely have to end
And great loves will one day have to part
I know that I am meant for this world

My life has been extraordinary
Blessed and cursed and won
Time heals but I'm forever broken
By and by the way...
Have you ever heard the words
I'm singing in these songs?
It's for the girl I've loved all along
Can a taste of love be so wrong

(Chorus)

And in my mind as I was floating
Far above the clouds
Some children laughed I'd fall for certain
For thinking that I'd last forever

But I knew exactly where I was
And I knew the meaning of it all
And I knew the distance to the sun
And I knew the echo that is love
And I knew the the secrets in your spires
And I knew the emptiness of youth
And I knew the solitude of heart
And I knew the murmurs of the soul
And the world is drawn into your hands
And the world is etched upon your heart
And the world so hard to understand
Is the world you can't live without
And I knew the silence of the world

Porcelina Of The Vast Oceans

As far as you take me, that's where I believe
The realm of soft delusions, floating on the leaves
On a distant shoreline, she waves her arms to me
As all the thought police, are closing in for sleep
The dilly dally, of my bright lit stay
The steam of my misfortunes
Has given me the power to be afraid

And in my mind I'm everyone
And in my mind
Without a care in this whole world
Without a care in this life
It's what you take that makes things right

Porcelina of the oceans blue

In the slipstream, of thoughtless thoughts
The light of all that's good, the light of all that's true
To the fringes gladly, I walk unadorned
With gods and their creations
With filth and disease
Porcelina, she waits for me there
With seashell hissing lullabyes
And whispers fathomed deep inside my own
Hidden thoughts and alibis
My secret thoughts come alive

Without a care in this whole world
Without a care in this life
It's what you take that makes things right
And in my mind I'm everyone
In my mind I'm everyone of you
You make it right
It's all allright
You make it right

Porcelina of the oceans blue

Take Me Down

Take me down, to the underground
Won't you take me down, to the underground
Why oh why, there is no light
And if I can't sleep, can you hold my life
And all I see is you

Take my hand, I lost where I began
In my heart I know all of my faults
Will you help me understand
And I believe in you
You're the other half of me
Soothe and heal...
When you sleep, when you dream, I'll be there if you need
Whenever I hear you sing...

There's a sun, it'll come, the sun, I hear them call me down
I held you once, a love that once, and life had just begun
And you're all I see...
And the trumpets blew, and angels flew to the other side
And you're all I see, and you're all I need
There's a love that God puts in your heart

Where Boys Fear To Tread

Candy cane walks down
To build a bonfire, to break my fall
My baby, my sweet thing
Just maybe we could lose ourselves this time

King of the horseflies, dark prince of death
HIs tragic forces are heaven sent
In sweet things, in a lovers breath
In knowing this was meant to be the last

A go-go-kids, a go-go-style
A suck suck suck kiss, a suck suck suck smile
As always, in young need
A veiled promise to never die

On dead highways, her black beauties roam
For June angels, so far from home
For a love lost, a faded picture
To tread lightning, to ink the lavender skies

So get on the bomb
Get back where you belong

Bodies

Cast the pearls aside, of a simple life of need
Come into my life forever
The crumubled cities stand as known
Of the sights you have been shown
Of the hurt you call your own

Love is suicide

The empty bodies stand at rest
Casualties of their own flesh
Afflicted by their dispossession

(Chorus)
But no bodies ever knew
Nobodys
No bodies felt like you
Nobodys

Love is suicide
(deny, decide, destroy, disobey, disguise)

Now we drive the night, to the ironies of peace
You can't help deny forever
The tragedies reside in you
The secret sights hide in you
The lonely nights divide you in two

All my blisters now revealed
In the darkness of my dreams
In the spaces in between us

(Chorus)

Love is suicide

Thirty-Three

Speak to me in a language I can hear
Humour me before I have to go
Deep in thought I forgive everyone
As the cluttered streets greet me once again

I know I can't be late, supper's waiting on the table
Tomorrow's just an excuse away
So I pull my collar up and face the cold, on my own

The earth laughs beneath my heavy feet
At the blasphemy in my old jangly walk
Steeple guide me to my heart and home
The sun is out and up and down again

I know I'll make it, love can last forever
Graceful swans of never topple to the earth
And you can make it last, forever you
You can make it last, forever you

And for a moment I lose myself
Wrapped up in the pleasures of the world
I've journeyed here and there and back again
But in the same old haunts I still find my friends
Mysteries not ready to reveal
Sympathies I'm ready to return

I'll make the effort, love can last forever
Graceful swans of never topple to the earth
Tomorrow's just an excuse
And you can make it last, forever you
You can make it last, forever you

In The Arms Of Sleep

Sleep will not come to this tired body now
Peace will not come to this lonely heart
There are some things I'll live without
But I want you to know that I need you right now
I need you tonite

I steal a kiss from her sleeping shadow moves
'cause I'll always miss her wherever she goes
And I'll always need her more than she could ever need me
I need someone to ease my mind
But sometimes a someone is so hard to find

And I'll do anything to keep her here tonite
And I'll say anything to make her feel alright
And I'll be anything to keep her here tonite
'cause I want you to stay, with me
I need you tonite

She comes to me like an angel out of time
As I play the part of saint on my knees
There are some things I'll live without
But I want you know that I need you right now

Suffer my desire (2x)
Suffer my desire for you

1979

Shakedown 1979, cool kids never have the time
On a live wire right up off the street
You and I should meet
Junebug skipping like a stone
With th headlights pointed at the dawn
We were sure we'd mever see an end to it all

And I don't even care to shake these zipper blues
And we don't know
Just where our bones will rest to dust I guess
Forgotten and absorbed into the earth below

Double cross the vacant and the bored
They're not sure just what we have in store
Morphine city slippin dues down to see
That we don't even care as restless as we are

We feel the pull in the land of the thousand guilts
And poured cement, lamented and assured
To the lights and towns below
Faster than the speed of sound
Faster than we thought we'd go, beneath the sound of hope

Justine never knew the rules
Hung down with the freaks and the ghouls
No apologies ever need be made
I know you better than you fake it

To see that we don't care to shake these zipper blues
And we don't know
Just where our bones will rest to dust I guess
Forgotten and absorbed into the earth below

The street heats the urgency of sound
As you can see there's no one around

Tales Of A Scorched Earth

Farewell goodnight last one out turn out the lights
And let me be, let me die inside
Let me know the way from this world of hate in you
'cause the dye is cast, and the bitch is back
And we're all dead, yeah we're all dead
Inside the future of a shattered past

(Chorus)
I lie just to be real, I'd die just to feel
Why do the same old things keep on happening?
Because beyond my hopes there are no feelings

Bless the martyrs and kiss the kids
For knowing better, for knowing this
'cause you're all whores, and I'm a fag
And I've got no mom and I've got no dad
To save me the wasted, save me from myself

(Chorus)

Everybody's lost just waiting to be found
Everyone's a thought just waiting to fade
So fuck it all 'cause I don't care
So what somehow somewhere we dared
To try to dare to dare for a little more

I lie just to be real, I'd die just to feel
Why do the same old things keep on happening?
Because beyond my hopes there are no reasons

Stumbleine

Boredoms in the bathroom shaking out the loose teeth
Sally's in the stirrups claiming her destiny
And nobody nowhere understands anything
About me and all my dreams
Lost at sea

Jack it up Judy, set your heart alight
Mayfair mistress of the satellites
Misspent youth - faking up a rampage
To hold off the real slaves
Paid off and staid

And what you never knew
Can never get to you
So fake it

I'll be your stumbleine
I'll be your super queen
And make you

Jukebox fuckup hanging round the drugstore
No matter what you say, he'll be back for more
Mommy's in the manger with the little kids
She's got her reasons, got my forgets
Of tears and idle threats
Misplaced

And no matter what they do
They can't get to you
So fake it

I'll be your stumbleine
I'll be your super queen
And make you me

Come around Ruby I could never sleep alone

X.Y.U.

She didn't wanna be, she didn't wanna know
She couldn't run away 'cause she was crazy
She gave it all away, she saw her baby break
And in the air it hung that she was dull razors

And I said, I wanna fill you up
I wanna break you, I wanna give you up
From one another, another one should come
To one another no one should come between us

Still I was lonely, and she was by my side
My one and only knows that she could never hide
I couldn't feel her, and it was just a game
'cause I was lonely and she was crazy

Rat-tat-tat, ka boom boom
Now take that, and just a bit of this
'cause I'm a watcher, and a doer of none
Come to save you, 'cause you're all mine

I hurt where I can't feel, I feel where I can't hurt
I know where I can't know, I bleed for me and mine
Ka-boom, a rat-tat-tat, and some good ole bliss
'cause I'm a sister, and I'm a motherfuck

I am made of shamrocks, I am made of stern stuff
I am never enough, I am the forgotten child

And I said, I wanna fill you up
I wanna break you, I wanna give you up
From one another, no one should ever come
In between us, between us and our love

Mary had a little lamb, her face as white as snow
And everywhere that Mary went, I was sure to go
Now Mary's got a problem, and Mary's not a stupid girl
Mary's got some deep shit, and Mary does not forget
And this is how Mary's garden grows
And this is how Mary has her ghosts

And in the eyes of the jackyl I say ka-boom

Now we begin descent, to where we've never been
There is no going back, this wasn't meant to last
This is a Hell on earth, we are meant to serve
And she will never learn

Bye bye, baby goodbye

We Only Come Out At Night

(Chorus)
We only come out at night (2x)
The days are much too bright
We only come out at night

And once again, you'll pretend to know me well, my friends
And once again, I'll pretend I know the way thru the empty space
Thru the secret places of the heart

(Chorus)

I walk alone, I walk alone to find the way home
I'm on my own, I'm on my own to see the ways
That I can't help the days, you will make it home ok
I know you can, and you can

(Chorus)

And once again, you'll pretend to know that
There's an end, that there's an end to this begin
It will help you sleep at night
It will make it seem that right is always right
Alright?

We only come out at night

Beautiful

Beautiful, you're beautiful, as beautiful as the sun
Wonderful, you're wonderful, as wonderful as they come
And I can't help but feel attached
To the feelings I can't even match
With my face pressed up to the glass, wanting you

Beautiful, you're beautiful, as beautiful as the sky
Wonderful, it's wonderful, to know that you're just like I

(Chorus)
And I'm sure you know me well, as I'm sure you don't
But you just can't tell who'll you love and who you won't

And I love you, and you love me
So let the clouds roll by your face
We'll let the world spin on to another place
We'll climb the tallest tree of them all
To look down on you and me and them

(Chorus)

Don't let your life wrap up around you
Don't forget to call, whenever
I'll be here just waiting for you
I'll be under your stars forever
Neither here nor there just right beside you
I'll be under the stairs forever
Neither here nor there just right beside you

Lily (My One And Only)

Lily, my one and only
I can hardly wait till I see her
Silly, I know I'm silly
'cause I'm hanging in this tree
In the hopes that she will get a glimpse of me

And thru her window shade
I watch her shadow move
I wonder if she....?

Lily, my one and only
Love is in my heart and in your eyes
Will she or won't she want him
No one knows for sure
But an officer is knocking on my door

And thru her window shade
I watch her shadow move
I wonder if she could only see me?

And when I'm with her I feel fine
If I could kiss her
I wouldn't mind the time it took to find

My Lily, my one and only
I can hardly wait till I see her
Oh Lily, I know you love me
'cause as they're draggin' me away
I swear I saw her raise her hand and wave (goodbye)

By Starlight

By starlight I'll kiss you
And promise to be your one and only
I'll make you feel happy
And leave you to be lost in mine
And where will we go, what will we do?
Soon said I, will know

Dead eyes, are you just like me?
'cause her eyes were as vacant as the seas
Dead eyes, are you just like me?

And all along, we knew we'd carry on just to belong

By starlight I know you
As lovely as a wish granted true
My life has been empty, my life has been untrue
And does she really know, who I really am?
Does she really know me at last

Dead eyes, are you just like me?

Farewell And Goodnight

Goodnight, to every little hour that you sleep tite
May it hold you through the winter of a long night
And keep you from the loneliness of yourself
Heart strung, is your heart frayed and empty
'cause it's hard luck, when no one understands your love
It's unsung, and I say

(Chorus)
Goodnight, my love, to every hour and every day
Goodnight, always, to all that's pure that's in your heart

Goodnight, may your dreams be so happy and your
Head lite with the wishes of a sandman and a night light
Be careful not to let the bedbugs
Sleep tight nestled in your covers

(2x)
The sun shines, but I don't
The silver rain will wash away

And you can tell, it's just as well

(Chorus)






Siamese Dream

Cherub Rock

Freak out,
and give in,
doesn't matter what you believe in

Stay cool,
and be somebody's fool this year

cause they know
who is richeous
what is bold, so I'm told

Who wants honey
as long as there is some money
who wants that honey

hipsters unite
come align for the big fight to rock
for you

but beware
all those angels with there wings glued on

cause deep down
we are frightened and we are scared
if you don't stare

who wants honey
as long as there is some money
who whats that honey

let me out
let me out
let me out
let me out

tell me all of your secrets
can I help but believe this is true
tell me all of your secrets
I know I know I know should have listened when I was told

who wants honey
as long as there is some money
who whats that honey

let me out
let me out
let me out
let me out

Quiet

quiet
I am sleeping
in here
I need a little hope

for years
I've been sleeping
helpless
couldn't tell a soul

be ashamed
of the mess you've made
my eyes never forget
you see behind me

silent
metal mercies
castrate
boys to bone

Jesus
are you listening
up there
to anyone at all

we are the fossils
relics of our time
mutilate the meanings
so they're easy to deny

be ashamed
of the mess you've made
my eyes never forget
you see behind me

quiet quiet
I am sleeping
quiet quiet
I am sleeping
quiet
I don't trust you
I can't hear you

be ashamed
of the mess you've made
my eyes never forget
you see behind me

you see behind me
the grace of falling snow
cover up everything you know
come save me from the awful sound
of nothing

Today

Today is the greatest
day I 've ever kown
can't live for tomorrow
tomorrow's much too long
I burn my eyes out
before I get out

I wanted more
than life could ever grant
bored by the chore
of saving face

today is the greatest
day I have ever known
can't wait for tomorrow
I might not have that long
I'll tear my heart out
before I get out

pink ribbon scars
that never forget
I've tried so hard
to cleanse these regrets
my angel wings
were bruised and restrained
my belly stings

today is
today is
today is
the greatest day
that I have ever known

I want to turn you on
I want to turn you round
I want to turn you on
I want to turn you

today is the greatest
today is the greatest day
today is the greatest day
that I have ever known

Hummer

faith lies in
the ways of sin
I chased the charms
but I don't want them anymore
and in their eyes I was alive
a fool's disguise

shame my tongue
fat with promise all along
but when I woke up from that sleep
I was happier than I'd ever been

when you decide
that you life is a prize
renew and revive
it's allright honey
it's allright, yeah

happiness will make you wonder
will I feel ok
it scares the disenchanted
far away

I want something new
but what am I supposed to do
about you
I love you, it's true

life's a bummer
when your a hummer
life's a drag

ask yourself a question
anyone but me
I ain't free

ask yourself a question
anyone but me
I ain't free

do you feel
love is real

Rocket

bleed in your own light
dream of your own life
I miss me
I miss everything I'll never be

I torch my soul to show
the world that I am pure
deep inside my heart
no more lies

a crown of thorns
an image formed deformed
the mark I've borne
a mark of scorn to you

consume my love devoure my hate
only powers my escape
the moon is out the stars invite
I think I'll leave tonight

so that soon I'll find myself alone
to relax and fade away
do you know what's coming down
do you know I couldn't stay free?

I shall be free
I shall be free
I shall be free
I shall be free free
free as the voices
it's all I need

I shall be free
I shall be free

Disarm

disarm you with a smile
and cut you like you want me to
cut that little child
inside of me and such a part of you

I used to be a little boy
so old in my shoes
and what I choose is my choice
what's a boy supposed to do
the killer in me is the killer in you
my love, I send this smile over to you

disarm you with a smile
and leave you like they left me here
to wither in denil
the bitterness of one who's left alone

I used to be a little boy
so old in my shoes
and what I choose is my voice
what's a boy supposed to do
the killer in me is the killer in you
my love, I send this smile over to you

the killer in me is the killer in you
send this smile over to you
the killer in me is the killer in you
send this smile over to you
the killer in me is the killer in you
send this smile over to you

Soma

nothing left to say
and all I've left to do
is run away
from you

and she led me up, down
with secrets I can't keep
close your eyes and sleep
don't wait up for me
hush now don't you speak
to me

wrap my hurt in you
and took my shelter in that pain
the opiate of blame
is you broken heart, your heart

so now I'm all by myself
as I've always felt
I'll betray my tears
to anyone caught in our ruse of fools

one last kiss for me...yeah
one last kiss good night

didn't want to lose you once again
didn't want to be your friend
fulfill a promise made of tears
and crawled back to you

now I'm all by myself
as I've always felt
and I'll betray myself
to anyone, anyone but you

so let the sadness come again
on that you can depend on me
until the bitter, bitter end
when good sleeps in bliss

and I'm all by myself
as I've always felt
and I'll betray myself
to anyone

Geek U.S.A.

lover lover let's pretend
were born as innocents
cast into the world
with apple eyes

to wish wish dangerous
my dear delirious
to try and leave
the rest of us behind

shot full of diamonds
and a million years
the disappointed disappear
as if they were never here

kiss kiss all of this
the kiss that we had missed
and understand
what can't be understood

sear those thoughts of me
alone and unhappy
I never liked me
anyway

If by chance
or circumstance
we should fall
don't be too sad

shot full of diamonds
and a million years
the disappointed disappear
like they were never here

in a dream
we are connected
siamese twins
at the wrist

that's when I knew
we had been forsaken
expelled from paradise
I can't believe them
when they say it's allright

words can't define what I feel inside
who needs them?
caught with this virus on my mind
I give into my disease, the disease of my needs
to my disease, of my needs

she really loves to break
her dad says its ok
she really loves to break
and give it all away

her mom says she's a flake
what more can she be
she really needs to break
and give us all away

she gave it all away
she gave it all away
she gave it all away
to be in love in usa


Mayonaise


fool enough to almost be it
cool enough to not quite see it
doomed
pick you pockets full of sorrow
and run away with me tomorrow
june

we'll try and ease the pain
but somehow we'll feel the same
well no one knows
where our secrets go

I send a heart to all my dearies
when your life is so so dreary
dream
I'm rummored to the straight and narrow
while the harlots of my perils
scream

and I fail
but when I can, I will
try to understand
that when I can, I will

mother weep the years I'm missin
all our time can't be given
back
shut my mouth and strike the demons
that cursed you and your reasons
out of hand and out of season
out of love and out of feeling so
bad

when I can, I will
words defy the plans
when I can, I will

fool enough to almost be it
and fool enough to not quite see it
and old enough to always feel this
always old, I'll always feel this

no more promise no more sorrow
no longer will I follow
can anybody hear me
I just want to be me
when I can, I will
try to understand
that when I can, I will

Spaceboy

feel it
break your bones
Mr. jones

taste me
as I bleed
taste my need

and spaceboy I've missed you
spinnin round my head
any way you choose me
you'll break instead

watch me
death defy
defile my life

I don't need
I don't care
please

I want to go home
I want to go home
I want to go home
I want to go home

cause when a lover aches
that's when a lover breaks

I want to go home
I want to go home

and spaceboy they'll kill me
before I'm dead and gone
and anyway they choose me
we won't belong
and anyway you choose me
we won't belong
we won't belong
we won't belong
we won't belong
we won't belong

Silverfuck

I hear your winter
I hear you rain
I've failed your summer ways
and I feel no pain

I hear what you are
and I feel no pain
I hear what you are
and I feel no pain

I hear you fade away
and I hear you crawl
I gave my life away
and I feel no pain
and I feel no pain
and I feel no pain
and I feel your pain

and she was my lover so sweet
and she was my angel
and what I've recovered of my
I put into a box underneath my bed

when you lie in your bed
and you lie to your self
when you lie in your bed
and you lie to your self

bang bang your dead hole in your head
bang bang your dead hole in your head
bang bang your dead hole in your head
bang bang your dead hole in your head

I hear what you are
and I feel no pain
I hear what you are
and I feel no pain

Sweet Sweet

sweet sweet sweet sweet
little agony
I don't know just where you've been
but I'll take take take
all that you have for me
in sin
where are we going?

and they all want you to change
and they all want you to change

and the sad sad sad
faces drown
in this town
where are we going

and they all want you to change
where are we going
and they all want you to change
where are we going

Luna

what moon songs
do you sing your babies
what sunshine
do you bring

who belongs
who decides who's crazy
who rights wrongs
where others cling

I'll sing for you
if you want me to
I'll give to you
and it's a chance I'll have to take
and it's a chance I'll have to break

I go along
just because I'm lazy
I go along
to be with you

and those moon songs
that you sing your babies
will be the songs
to see you thru

I'll hear your song
if you want me to
I'll sing along
and it's a chance I'll have to take
and it's a chance I'll have to break

I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you

I'm in love with you
so in love
I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you

I'm in love with you
so in love
I'm in love with you
I'm so in love
I'm in love with you






Pisces Iscariot

 
Soothe
Hungry, hungry again
Hungry, hungry again
When will it start to sway
When will it start to almost break you
Hungry, hungry again
Hungry, hungry again
I'll miss you
And I wish you luck
Well, I forgive you
And I don't wish you away, away, away
It'll almost break you
Almost take you
Almost break you
Almost break you up  
 
Frail and Bedazzled
So
Now listen here
I wanna be
Oh so clear
I lost my soul
Lost I'll stay
Between your hands
And my beliefs
And here I am
Frail
Frail and bedazzled from all the glare
Tug
At my sleeve
My little girl
Supermaid
She don't know
That I have
Stole my smile
From a Cheshire Cat
And all I wanted
Was to be a man
Since I gave up
I feel free
I feel free
I feel free
I feel free
Two of us
That's dangerous
It's all inside our heads
Givin' in for nothin' less
Leavin' me for him
Try to understand
The ones I love
And their demands
It's so unfair
When they can't see
That I'm the boy
Who really needs
Their love
I suppose
Frail and bedazzled from all the
Frail and bedazzled from all the
Frail and bedazzled from all the glare  
 
Plume
Oh yeah, another day
Oh yeah, gotta play
What it is
It never was
I don't care
To give enough
My boredom has outshined the sun
It's all down low
I just want to have some
Little fun
Oh yeah, another day
Oh yeah, what a waste
What it is
It never was
I don't care
Or give a fuck
My boredom has outshined the sun
It's all down low
I just want to have some
Little fun
Bring me down
Bring me down  
 
Whir
I've wasted all my years
Been chasin' all my fears
For another brighter than you
I gave in long ago
To make it to the show
But its not easy
When you're alone
All your prayers
In my ears
Don't you care
Whir yourself around
Just to fall back down
Whir yourself around
My honey
Little girl
C'mon lets go for a whirl
It's still early
The sun is sleeping
She says she wants to marry me
She says she wants a baby
It's not easy
When you're scared
Whir yourself around
Just to fall back down
Whir yourself around
All your prayers
In my ears
Don't you care  
 
Blew Away
Blew, blew away
But I don't wanna fade
Blew, blew, oooh
And if you love her
You know it will come true
And if you need her
You know that she'll be there
Stay awake, I lie here
With her and I fall
And when I wake inside you
I know you know I'm yours
Blew, blew away
But I don't wanna fade
Blew, blew, oooh
And if you're sad, too
Until the angel sings and touches you
Don't confuse my only life
I said blew, and please don't ever leave
And I will grieve, and (re)member thee
Hope to meet you there
And I wanna let her know
That I won't let her go
I wanna let her know
That I love her so
I'm Blew, blew, blew away
But I don't wanna-
Blew, I love you
Blew  
 
Pissant
Got me a raygun
Got me an altitude
Can't help feelin' something's wrong
With every one of you
Inside your head
Trust me instead
Inside your head
Talk revolution
As if it matters now
I don't care anyway
Just give me what I want
Inside your head
Trust me instead
Inside your head
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Ooh, honey
Fill me with your little whispers
Store your little nightmares
Of a generation said to burn
Come on honey
Let's go for a ride
Down where the crickets learn to sing and play, baby
Inside your head
Trust me instead
Inside your head
Trust me instead
Inside your head
Trust me instead
Inside your head
Yeah, it's a motherfucker, oh
(WOO!)  
 
Hello Kitty Kat
Say hello before you say goodbye
I should go, before you make me cry
She wants to bleed every drop inside of me
But I aim to please the little girl inside of me, too
Yeah, Yeah
You know I hate to say
Oh no, I always stay
I don't wanna be like the others please
Who is sorry now?
Who is sorry now?
If I show you how
Will you let me down?
Slit my wrists and die a whore
Love to love to love what you adore
I can give you anything, but please let me
Be your everything... please
Yeah, Yeah
You know I hate to say
Oh no, I always stay
I don't wanna be like the others please
Who is sorry now?
If I show you how,
Will you let me down?
Will you let me down?
Who is sorry now?
Who is sorry NOW!?
My love is weakness
My love is oh so wrong
My love is sadness
My love is oh so strong
My teeth are razor sharp
My love is fucking strong
I'll be with you
But not for long
Oh, oh, oh
Yeah, Yeah
You know I hate to say
Oh no, I always stay
I don't wanna be like the others please

Who is sorry now?
Who is sorry now?
Who is sorry now?

If I show you how
Will you let me down?
Will you let me down?
Please let me down
Please let me down  
 
Obscured
Lost your head
Now you sleep on the floor
What you said
I don't want anymore
Through the haze
Make your eyes up to ache
Out in space
Days away
Through these eyes
I rely on all I've seen
Obscured
Through these eyes
Looks like I'm home tonight
Left for dead
As you sweep out the door
Things we said
We don't mean anymore
Tear inside her
Like a fallen kite
Hah, hah, hah, hey, hey, yeah
Through these eyes
I deny on all I see
Obscured
Through these eyes
Looks like I'm home tonight
What you said
Made a mess of me
What you said
I don't want
Obscured  
 
Landslide
I took my love, I took it down
I climbed a mountain and I turned around
And I saw my reflection in the snow covered hills
'Til the landslide brought it down
Oh, mirror in the sky, what is love?
Can the child within my heart rise above?
Can I sail through the changing ocean tides?
Can I handle the seasons of my life?
Well, I've been afraid of changing cause I've
Built my life around you
But time makes you bolder
Even children get older
And I'm getting older, too
Well, I've been afraid of changing cause I've
Built my life around you
Time makes you bolder
Even children get older
And I'm getting older, too
I get older, too
I took my love and took it down
I climbed a mountain, I turned around
And if you see my reflection in the snow covered hills
The landslide brought it down
The landslide brought it down
 
Starla
I'm in here
Please take me home
Starla dear
I'm all alone
When you can't decide what's on your mind
It's clear I'm here, Starla dear
To disappear takes so much time
Starla dear, you're on my mind
Soon, soon I'll be leaving
Soon, soon I'll be leaving
I hear all you're saying
I hear all you're failing
Serve yourself
No one else can do for you like you
No one else fails like me
In my eyes I burn alive
Fly like a bird
No more words just you and I
High in the sky  
 
Blue
Hey Blue, all your love is strange
Come out with all those crazy names
So true when you lie
For you, Blue
Right or wrong?
I belong right or wrong
Hey Blue, where'd you run to now?
Miss you since they found you out
I've been waiting such a long time
For your smile, for you
I lay with you this velvet morning
Stay with me for a while
Where we run to is up to you
Just stay with me for a while
 
Girl Named Sandoz
Well I met a girl called Sandoz
And she taught me many many things
Good things, very good things
Sweet things
I met her on a Sunday morning
It was hot though the snow lay on the ground
Strange things, very strange things
My mind has wings
Sandoz Sandoz
Will you tell me 'No?'
Sandoz Sandoz
Will you tell me why?
We could all learn something from your mind
She's very old yet many think she's young
One kiss from her and you know your time has come
Good times for all time
Sandoz  
 
La Dolly Vita
I lay my head on her bosom
To cry myself to sleep
I see no greater wisdom
Than she has given me
La Dolly Vita
Sweet as true love
La Dolly Vita
Cool as ice cream
Cool as ice cream
You hear a lot of visions
You can't even stop
Can't see what you're missing
Spinning like a top
Fade away I want to see her
Fade away I want to see her
I only want to meet her
La Dolly Vita
True as blue sky
La Dolly Vita
Cool as ice cream
Cool as ice cream
Take it all the way down
Forsake what you have now
Take it all the way down  
 
Spaced
dad dad dad
dead dead dead dead dead
was i ever alive?
fucking makes you alive in one minute
solstice
i am solstice filled with mercury
filled with mercury
liquid fucked
see right through your heart
see right through your heart
fuck your heart
i am mercury liquid pure
hot, alive, dead, mucked fish eyes, doors
i was born alive
i'll fucking kill you
i'll beat your soft baby head with my own hand
careful with that baby
don't ever say the h word around him
ashamed
i am ashamed of my name, say it
i hate the sound of your shit because it means no good
it means cheap, liar, smart ass piece of shit
change it to raygun you fuck
billy the loon
billy the loon
i am mars
i am mars
billy addly addly addly....
your name causes shit
while i may be no expert on this reality there is no god but shame
god is hurt, god is cold
try that once, god is dead
there is not another one
battle
cold heart radio
feedback
the pain
reoccuring messages of badness
reoccuring living bad dreams at the vortex of lost souls
wailing lost souls of shame
we are in one hole
like a cup of mercury phosphate
brrr
shuddering around [?]
taste my shit you wench
lifting wailing lost souls who stand a chance
hot, my eyes darkly gaze and wonder- do not enter [?]
why why why?
i was born whole
fractured divided shattered into a billion fragments
a million piece puzzle
a million piece jigsaw puzzle with no this, and no that.....








































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